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So, it’s been months and months since I last wrote anything on here and I really forgot all about it. While i’ve been away i’ve played WoW, got to level 70 and done some hardcore raiding then I got kicked out of my guild and decided it was a good time to quit. So I have. No longer addicted to the thing i’ve started a mechanic’s course at Colchester Institute which started tonight, however i’ve missed out a lot of stuff in between so I better fill you in first.

I’m still laid up to an extent with the old CFS but I have felt like i’ve been getting better. Although I wasn’t able to complete my Eng Lit A level exam (or even take it) due to anxiety problems, I did get almost full marks on my coursework which i’m really really proud of. This year i’m continuing and doing both exams so I can get one decent A level. Good news is that I already have two Es in Geography and Government and Politics. Shazam! As well as that academic success i’ve started seeing a counsellor about my anxiety issues which seems to be helping but it’s early days yet. I’ll give you another update in 6 months time and tell you then! Another big achievement for me was that this summer I went on holiday without my parents. That might not seem like a big deal to you but last year I barely managed to get to Italy with the family because of the anxiety and worry so this is quite a big deal. I went for a week with Dave and Owen which probably made things easier as they are two of my best friends. As well as the holiday I took a trip to London to meet my Geek Friends, get lashed and stay in a hotel. That went really well apart from the incident I won’t talk about, and like going to Cornwall it was a huge step for me and something i’m proud of achieving.

This summer has also been one where i’ve really thought hard about where i’m going in the future as everyone’s started leaving for uni again, however this time Max is off too and it’s going to be really strange to not have him 15 minutes away after 19 years. Still, I can always spend 4 hours on the train and go see him! Owen is also going to be a lot further out of touch, as he is moving to Florence as part of his Art History degree. I can’t wait to go see him and just thinking that makes me feel good as, like with the holiday, I wouldn’t have even dreamed of making that kind of trip a year ago. One big gap in my life at the moment is Han. This summer we celebrated 2 years together and now she’s gone on a tour of Africa for 3 months. It was pretty sudden but something she really needed to do and i’m so pleased she has finally got away, she’ll also be all fit and tanned when she gets back at Christmas so it’s not all bad! Dave’s not gone anywhere, still living 5 minutes down the road and still trying to get Winston back on the road. He’s got a full time job at a bakery in town which he is so happy with and because of the hours (4am-12pm) it means he’s around in the late afternoons so we can go out and do manly things together. His lady is off to uni this year too so we can mope about together.

This brings me neatly back to where I started. Going into this (school) year I feel a lot more positive than the last one. I feel like there’s something to look forward to and I feel like things are starting to look up. I mean, sometimes I do get a bit down but everyone picks me back up again and it’s hard to stay feeling like that for long. This is a new me.

I’ve also started playing Team Fortress 2, we’ve waiting fucking long enough for the damn thing so i’m SO on the beta!